A photograph of a desk that is full of desk tools and ephemera. A screen, a mmouse and a keyboard are all visible, but there are also a number of lit candles, a game controller, some figures of pixies created by Wendy Froud and a figure of Chell from the Portal games. There is also a water bottle and some decorations of birds attached to the sides of the desk area. The words About Maz are shown in the bottom left of the image.

Maz exists at the confluence of wyrd, queer and wearing far too much linen.

They are pro-planet, pro-trees, pro-kindness, pro-ecosystems, pro-being yourself, pro-local, pro-making it yourself, pro-learning, pro-expression, pro-mystery, pro-discovery, pro-getting lost in the woods, pro-finding your way out of the woods, pro-music, pro-silence, pro-tea, pro-small, pro-joy, pro-story, pro-love, pro-bodily autonomy, pro-gratitude, pro-connection, pro-listening, pro-crow, pro-scarf, pro-community, pro-rest, pro-books, pro-having enough space to put all your books, pro-getting to pet other people's dogs, pro-singing together, pro-jammies, pro-fungi, pro-spring, pro-gravy, pro-identifying plants, pro-getting to do what you love, pro-star gazing, pro-playing an instrument by candlelight, pro-showing up, pro-naps, pro-moisturiser, pro-creative experimentation, pro-zine, pro-trying something new, pro-cosy, pro-intersectionality, pro-fox, pro-taking your meds, pro-asking for help, pro-getting help, pro-handmade, pro-inclusion, pro-journalling, pro-remembering where you phone is, pro-being able to pay your bills, pro-peace, pro-comfort, pro-Samwise Gamgee being brown, pro-cleaning your glasses, pro-sortition, pro-handwritten letters, pro-intuition, pro-seasonality, pro-community time, pro-daydreaming, pro-adaptation, pro-finding the patience, pro-writing it down so you don't forget, pro-reciprocity, pro-discovering your own magic, pro-imagination and pro-biotic.

They're probably anti most other things.

Maz is an oak tree; blooming in the spring, beautiful and bountiful in the autumn, stressed in the summer and bleak and miserable in the winter, home to a countless array of other organisms that rely on me to exist. I acknowledge that all these other-than-human organisms and cells I am in symbiosis with is a large part of my they.

Maz is a gender neutral name that is Scandinavian in origin. It is also a shortening of my full name in my local vernacular dialect. That's grounding and I like it.

Maz is Genderfae.

Maz is on mastodon on social.lol and you can find some photos at maz.some.pics

Maz exists and that is enough.

I am old, Gandalf; HRT can cover a multitude, but I am undeniably a lot older than once I was.

I'd hoped by now that I'd have settled into a quiet, slow wisdom, the sort that can be calm and measured and drop a pearl into the midst of chaos that immediately shifts perspectives.

Yes, I basically hoped I'd be a TV Movie character, go figure.

I'm not calm and measured though, I remain who I've always been, passionately mercurial and with precisely the same sense of rambling incoherence I always had. I'm just better at accepting that's who I am now.

I read. I write. I create a multitude of different things that are largely poor, but give me pleasure. I like to watch an interesting video, I like to try and make a game out of tasks. I like to watch and observe and try and understand.

I like to think that things can be a whole lot better than they are. I regret often thinking that things may have to get worse yet before that happens. I like to hope that we could surpass and step outside the self-interest that has been normalised as "the only way" over the past few decades. I look and see that we're not ready for that yet.

I'm quiet if you meet me in person; looking for connection but incapable of the small talk that bridges the gap between here and there. I don't stray too far from home, but I'm obliged to go out every day.

I love to watch the seasons develop and change, through what is growing or living in my vicinity. I firmly believe that there are a lot more than the simple deliniations of 4 seasons, but still less than the Japanese system of 72 seasons.

I like to learn new things. I like to try and keep up the things I've already learned. I tell myself I'll remember how to do that thing later for sure. I quite often don't.

I want today to be a good day. I hope yours is too.